I think my depression is starting to take a huge spiral downward. I know I've been saying over and over again that it's not that bad, and for awhile it wasn't; but tonight it is that bad, and it seems to just be getting worse. And I don't know what the fuck to do about it.

All I can think is this: If I'm just going to feel exhausted and cranky and be unable to concentrate whether or not I eat, I might as well just not fucking eat, so at least I can lose some weight and look better, if I have to be this goddamned miserable anyway.

Fuck this shit.