A bit stoned still. I seem to be one of those people who gets the munchies while stoned. YAY! So far I ate junk food at the friend's where I smoked (I bought it and ate most of it before the MJ, though), and then when I came home I ate some chocolates from upstairs, and THEN I went to my pile of binge food, which I actually haven't touched since a bit before Christmas day for an actual binge. Apparently I still had a whole pack of Snickers bars in there, although I had thought I only had the remaining Kit-Kat Chunky. So I had a Snickers bar. I fucking love Snickers.

MJ kinda... slows me down. But I discovered tonight that it doesn't actually make me happy -- it's just a great high when I'm in a good mood. Tonight I had some of my mood-swingy shit because my friend got "annoyed" at me over essentially nothing, so I went from happy to kind of sad/lonely/something. Dysphoric, maybe. I was still really slow and sloggish and didn't want to focus my brain on anything and concentrate, but instead of happy underlying it, crap did. It kind of makes me feel a bit like when I'm in one of my extremely irritable depressions, which used to be fairly rare until recently. These days I seem to get irritated or mad a lot. I'm not really sure why.

Well, I hope this all made a bit of sense. Hopefully my writing isn't ridiculously bad while stoned.

I can still feel my muscles trying to relax themselves.