So.

I'm sorry if this is erratic or unorganized. I am both at the moment.

Long story somewhat short: I am typing this from the psych hospital library right now (short stay unit [SSU]). I've been admitted for a week now, and I will be in probably until next Monday or Tuesday. I REALLY hope it won't be for any longer than that!! Short term stay is not exactly the most lively or interesting place in the world. Hah.

The timeline would be something like this. Wednesday night: bit of a crisis at my house. Too many pills, a police officer at my house, an ambulance ride to the ER, a short stay there, a transfer to the SSU at the psych hospital. Thursday morning: Seizure; somewhat delayed reaction to the too many pills. I remember nothing about it -- just waking up in the ER bed, after having had a code 666 (medical emergency) called on me and being sent over, again. I stayed on a medical floor for a night, got a CT scan done Friday morning, and was medically cleared. Went back over to short term stay, where I've been ever since.

You'll be interested, and, I hope, pleased to hear that I am currently in the beginnings of the application process for Homewood, a residential treatment center located in Guelph, Ontario. Because, yes, it's going to be an admission to the eating disorders program. I'm being held here until Monday or Tuesday to finalize things on that end -- not for any other reason. They're making sure my application goes through and getting an idea about the wait period. I won't get up there until at LEAST early January; but it could be much longer than that.

I am... well, apprehensive is a good word, I guess. I suppose anybody seeking ED treatment would be. The description of the program actually rather reminds me of the Renfrew program they showed in the Thin documentary. It definitely seems like an excellent program. Airfare will have to come out of pocket, but, fortunately, the treatment will almost certainly be covered by the provincial medical care plan (and if it's not I won't be going, so yeah). I'm not sure if my insurance covers any. All I know is that I can't live with this eating disorder anymore, and Homewood seems like a really good chance to actually get better from this. So please pray for me, or keep your fingers crossed, or whatever it is that you do, because I really need this to go through, and I'm scared of what will happen if it doesn't.

I have no time to catch up on entries at the moment, and may not get to a computer again until I leave, so if anything important has happened, please do write a comment and/or link me to an entry or two.

I misses you guys. ♥