Daily weigh-in: 130.6. Only point-two pounds up... I can live with that. Anyway, I expect it to start decreasing soon. As in, when I actually get enough sleep for the night, and don't end up eating too much while watching X2 and then purging. *sigh*

I have yet to take my pills today, actually. I was really hungry earlier, but the stomach grumbling has gone away for the moment. I'm sure it will be back again, though. I have to go to my psychiatrist today at 3:20, so before that I will take my "morning" medications and eat an apple with it. Eighty-one cals is a good way to start the day, methinks -- plus the apple has water in it, and I've been getting really thirsty lately. The problem with the thirst, usually, is that it makes me crave ice pops or fruit instead of water, so I go eat instead of drinking. This is something I must curb, I know. Believe me, I'll be working on it. :)

I hope to get some antianxiety medication that actually works this afternoon... holding back my feelings is not going to work for much longer, and the precursor to me trying something stupid is always anxiety. Therefore, I figure that if I get a benzo or something, so I can calm down, I might be able to control myself better. I mean, I'm not going to say, "Hello, Dr. R, please give me a benzo!" I'll just explain the symptoms and he can give me whatever he wants -- just as long as it works. That's all I require.

Anyway, I'm gonna get my glass of water and apple, and recheck that appointment time to make sure it's right. My life is so exciting, I know. *gags*