Pretty miserable right now. Dysthymia's back full-force because of the ED, but because of the dysthymia I have absolutely no motivation to even try and get better (not that it ever works). I still take my antidepressant, but I don't eat enough for it to absorb properly.
I don't know how to recover. I've tried to eat more -- I end up purging every time. I try to eat healthier things, like wraps and so forth -- I get nauseous (what the fuck?). My skin is drying out and I didn't get my period this month and I'm depressed and irritable and all I want to do is starve starve starve.
Maybe I'll just never get the fuck out of this. Not that I really believe I deserve to. In my mind, if I'm stupid enough to keep starving myself, I deserve whatever consequences come to me.
*sigh*
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