Diuretic pills. The recommended dose is supposed to be one pill; I took two. But what's the difference between that and taking 3 ibuprofen instead of 2, which I've done to no ill effects? Or what about all the times I took 5 or 6 laxative pills at once instead of 2?

Why am I even bothering to try and justify my self-destruction? I took the pills in the first place precisely because I wanted self-destruction. I want to be more dehydrated, make my body suffer, give myself (the mental part of me, not just my body) exactly what I deserve. I know that diuretics do nothing for weight, but that isn't the point. The point is to cause more harm.

All I want to do right now is self-destruct. That is all I seem to care about. And exams are over now, so I currently have free reign to do whatever I wish. Which I am currently planning to take full advantage of.