Today I am ridiculously and utterly wiped... shopping for an hour with my mom and sister took all the energy I had. I just had a two-hour nap/doze, and I'm still really effing tired.

Also, I can't really b/p tonight, because my aunt and uncle are coming over to play cards (I didn't ask, but they usually play cards) with my parents, and some girl who was recently in the hospital for anorexia is coming over to hang out with my sister. So all of them will be occupying two floors, and I'm not sure I'd be brave enough to use the shower to purge when the relatives are here. The funny thing was that I didn't even really want to b/p today, so it might actually work out. I'm so fucking tired that I don't really have the energy to b/p anyway.

I had forgotten how much this food restriction thing will drain your energy really really fast. I think my body is trying to make me rest or sleep a lot to try and conserve energy, since I'm not giving it that much through food. It's probably also trying to recover from the three b/ps of yesterday.

My main focus, and a lot of my thoughts, center around one thing lately: I have to lose this weight.