I was just looking at my weight graph on MyPlate (on the Livestrong site), and I was going to post it somewhere else anyway, so I thought maybe I would post it here as well. I bet every damn bulimic on the planet would have a weight graph that looks as crazy and zigzagged as this one... bulimics, as many of you probably know, can drop and gain weight like crazy. As it goes, in fact, I would imagine this sort of graph is pretty typical of your average bulimic.
So there you can see my low maintained weight of late August to mid September... my weight spike to 113 lbs when I started going to the gym and gaining a bit of muscle weight... and then the lack of weighing myself at all when I stopped going to the gym and started comfort eating, only to top out at 117.4 on October 21st. Which, of course, is when I decided I HAD to do something about it. I've lost quite gradually since then... an average of maybe a pound a week? But at least I've lost. And I haven't been completely starving myself, comparatively speaking, which I guess is sort of an improvement in one way, though another part of me really fucking hates it because I clearly have no willpower if I can't lose faster, and blah blah fucking blah. Lots of ED bullshit. You know.
So, basically, my weight has been a nice zigzag since then, because gradual weight loss doesn't show up right away, so you can gain a pound of water weight here or lose a real half a pound there, and it takes viewing the trend to actually see the weight loss consistently. It was only upon viewing that graph that I realized the 114.0 is probably accurate, given the weight loss trend that's been happening so far, and all those spikes upward were probably water or poop weight or some crap. I AM losing, though it's not exactly as fast as I'd like it to be. On the other hand, I have some energy, and am not totally 100% ED-crazy at the moment, so maybe it has its benefits.
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