Laxatives gave me the shits. Twice. It was not pleasant either time.

I also purged twice tonight. The second time it was both preceded and followed by bowel movements, and I thought I was going to have a heart attack when I sat back down on that toilet. But I didn't. Maybe it would have been better if I had.

I'm dehydrated and tired and cranky and I never want to eat one fucking morsel of food ever again.

How am I supposed to keep living like this????