Purged the birthday lunch as soon as I got home. Got most of it up, I think. Definitely got all the ice cream cake up, at least -- not as certain about the wrap.

I don't want to eat anymore today. I feel disgusting and fat.

I did get some lovely presents, though, including Chapters money and a $20 bill and a bunch of pretty things (dreamcatcher, fountain, etc), and I got to see my aunts and cousins and little second cousins. So it wasn't all bad, but... I wish I hadn't had to purge the whole meal up. I could possibly have kept down the half of the wrap I had, but after the cake all I could think of was how soon we'd get home so I could go purge. Ughhhhhh.

I'm, like, afraid to eat now. I'm afraid I'll purge just about anything up. And this is only going to lead to binging and purging, instead of the eat-normal-meals-and-purge thing I'm doing now. But I can't help it. I feel gross and food is disgusting and I am NOT putting that shit in my body today. It's just not happening.

I need to cleanse myself of the filth I poison my body with.