I am a ridiculously efficient purger. Nowadays my stomach muscles seem to be trained. When I stick my fingers down my throat (I still have to do that for it to work, unfortunately) it all comes up really fast and easily, and practically effortlessly too. Plus the reflux pill makes the acid in my stomach almost nonexistent, so it doesn't even burn or anything. No pain, no strain -- just food, looking as though I just swallowed it, quickly but smoothly returning the way it came.

It's no wonder I can't stop doing this. I'm even better at it now than I was before I left for residential -- mostly because I'm not ridiculously weak now, so my muscles actually have some power in them.

So bad, so sad. But so good and wonderful at the same time.

Alas.