My friend has to go to the hospital under the eating disorders protocol of the general psych unit tomorrow. I'm upset... but, more than that, I'm actually jealous. It's sad that I want to be sick enough for someone to pay attention to me like that... but I do. I really do. And it really makes me want to go back to doing all that ED shit, to get the attention... or something... argh.
That, and I really am worried about my friend, too.
But mostly jealous.
I have a stupid, fucked-up brain.
1 comment:
Mhhh not fucked up at all hun. I am scared to the point of paranoia that my brother or sister is developing an eating disorder because of me. I don't want them to not have an ED because it's unhealthy, i don't want them to have an ED because it's the one thing I have even if I don`t like the attention I get it`s my attention! I havent completely figured out the idea but yeah I feel exactly the same, don`t worry you`re not the only one.
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