Breakfast: Two scrambled eggs, two slices of whole wheat toast with jam (one strawberry, one blueberry), and my coffee with insanely yummy creamer (dulce de leche :D). Also will have caffeine-free Diet Pepsi to take pills with.

I don't have time to go into a lot of detail right now, but the personal training session prodded me into making a fresh attempt at eating healthily, including more protein, and going to the gym regularly. I basically admitted my eating disorder to the personal trainer... who, as it turned out, had been bulimic herself at one point. Just having an understanding ear, and someone who actually believed the bulimia was a problem that I needed to overcome, seemed to make me actually feel guilty for the shit I do to myself, and made me actually feel like I should try and be healthier.

So I'm attempting to eat three meals a day, and trying to get in more protein, like I said, because she told me that the reason I probably had all the muscle aches before was that I wasn't getting enough protein. Her advice was to eat 1 starch/carb half an hour before a workout and half an hour after, and within 1-2 hours of finishing the workout I should have protein. Other than that, a normal, balanced diet would obviously apply. I'm even trying to eat some fruits and veg, which for me lately is just crazy, because I've been totally skipping both, aside from lettuce and tomato on burgers at work. I didn't have fruit or anything at breakfast today, but I ate a LOT for me for breakfast, and it was healthy stuff, so I'm feeling pretty pleased about breakfast generally. I'm not going to beat myself up about not doing it "perfectly", either, because I know this isn't all going to happen in a day, and if I expect it to I'm only setting myself up to fail. And the idea here is to have balance, but also some leeway. So if I want to have some junk as a dessert, or I want to go out for a meal, or whatever, I can do that. But overall, in a general sense, I do need to try and be healthier. So I'm going to try.

I don't know my weight atm and... well, it's not that I don't care, exactly, but that I'm trying not to pay attention. With healthy eating and good exercise I should get quite fit, even if I don't lose any body fat (I didn't last time I worked out regularly), so I shouldn't need to know a specific weight. I guesstimated 117 for the gym machines yesterday. I might get on the scale now and again to see how I'm doing overall, but I'm going to try NOT to let the number freak me out. We'll see if that works, but....... I'm going to try? :S