All right. Shit is better now. I told my therapist a goodly amount of what I wrote in my last entry, and said some things I really needed to say, so I feel a bit better about the whole thing now. Translation: I haven't entirely given up hope on it yet :). Plus, psychology class was awesome -- not the lecture (which was pretty much all biology, a subject I know barely anything about), but the fact that I was on MSN and AIM chatting with people WHILE taking notes. I was just... amazed. Haha.

On the eating front, I had a few candies this morning (yeah, I know... but it was only 100 cals), and then smartly and randomly decided to go to Subway after my appointment. I had a turkey deli... and discovered that ranch and BBQ sauce go well together. Who'd have thought!? (The BBQ sauce is somewhat sweet at Subway, so that doesn't necessarily hold true for other barbecue sauces.) Then, after class, I made my dad bring me to McDonald's to get a free muffin, and I ate about 3/4ths of it. And I've just put away all the groceries Mom brought home, and some of them are beginning to look mighty appetizing.

Today I think I may make a bit of an exception food-wise, though. I'm dizzy basically every time I walk (mild -- I'm not always falling over or clutching things, but I have a weird feeling in my head like I'm kinda swaying), and I think my blood pressure is a bit low. Note the word think. Oh, yeah, and I'm starting to get a headache. Anyway, I might eat just because that deli did make me feel better, so I probably need some food to feel better, and... ughhhhhh. I dunno. Maybe maybe not. I am conflicted. Then again, aren't I always???