Take II, Day 12

Daily weigh-in: 155.2! So apparently the McDonald's and vodka and eating "too much" last night didn't do a whole lot. I think that's pretty good.

Tonight (actually, very very soon), I'm going to a restaurant with my family to celebrate my mom's birthday, so I will likely be imbuing more calories than I really want to. However, it's funny lately -- I literally cannot fit as much food inside me at once as I could before. My stomach is perfectly satisfied with my 500 cals a day spread out, it honestly is -- no grumbling or feeling really insatiated or anything. Instead of the physical hunger, my real problem is cravings, because when I don't eat the "normal" calorie level I get cravings a LOT, particularly for sweets and grain products. That's when I have to start using the self-control.

Anyway, my point is -- I don't know if I'll even be able to finish that restaurant meal. So I'll just eat what I want until I feel full, and then stop. I think this is the easiest way to manage it, because I won't be actually depriving myself, but I'll be listening to my body's cues and not eating until I feel bloated, which means I won't have to go purge it up. So I can be perfectly satisfied with whatever "meal" I eat, and hopefully not eat too much tonight. I know this sounds like a cop-out (and probably is), but if I DON'T go, or DON'T eat what I usually eat, my family is going to start suspecting. And that cannot happen.