"Breakfast": Medium light roast coffee with milk and sweetener

Lunch: Small veggie pita on whole wheat with lettuce, tomato, cucumber, green pepper, mushroom, hummus, honey mustard, and light mayo; a bottle of Diet Pepsi

"Snack", aka Niika-can't-control-her-damned-self: Two shortbread cookies in the form of pumpkins, with orange icing

Supper: Formers' Supper at M House -- half plate spaghetti with meat sauce & mushrooms; quarter plate of Caesar salad with like... 1 crouton and two bacon bits :| ; 1 piece of multigrain garlic bread; maybe around a cup of iced tea

Snack: A piece of the half chocolate, half butter pecan cake with orange icing (Halloween cake) that was made for dessert; not quite half of a bottle of Diet Pepsi


My stomach has decided to be a bitch tonight and give me ulcer/hernia/whatever-the-hell-it-is problems. Love the thanks my body gives me for eating more -.- . On the other hand, I'm sure these stomach problems would never have happened in the first place had it not been for the ED, so probably the only way I'm going to be able to fix the pain is eat normally, not purge, and grin and bear it in the meantime. I managed to eat more today, but I'm already planning to b/p at least once when I get home, because I simply can't resist the impulse, and I want to, and I need it. Also known as: fuck my stupid fucking head. :/

Also: My social worker called the ED clinic the other day about whether I could see someone while waiting for the referral to go through, and it turns out that there's some outpatient dietician who only has about a 2-3 week waiting list at the moment. So she sent the referral off tonight. If I get into the clinic before the dietician can see me I can just not go; but if there is any sort of delay with getting clinic services (and given what's already gone on, that's not so unlikely), I will at least be able to talk to someone about it and attempt to get some kind of meal plan or something. I guess I'll see if and when I get there. *shrug*